Life starting over

When I was 38, Life started over. I had a breakdown, went into the Psychiatric hospital 6 times in 6 months, underwent 13 rounds of ECT (electro shock), took countless pills and was kept from voting for anyone but Bush in the 2000 election. I used to work as a Psychiatric Social Worker, ironic; now I spend my days with dogs and orchids and often hallucinations and delusions. I have little memory of the 1990's and parts of the 1980's due to the ECT. I can't even remember Graduate School, thanks Doc. They say I'm Bi Polar or I may be Schizoaffective. In either case, I take a lot of medicine and without it (or when I get really stressed), I get pretty crazy. Lisa